i've talked to friends and they really sensed (heeeeelll sensed) that something was wrong. and they kinda called it 'bitch 16: what you get from sweet 16'. i'd really love to think it that way, but either ways i'm not leading to where i'm s'pose to be heading to. where am i going anyways?

ok. spill it.

lots of questions have been, what? corrupting my mind? college, service, friends, family. it all just came in one big BOOM and woooot! i'm tired. fed-up. exhausted. lost. devastated. dead? ok. the whole point is... wait. i don't even know the damn point! it's like living everyday just to NOT disappoint people you love. but hell you wake up the next day and read a post on your Facebook wall that says YOU'RE DIAPPONTING ME :( coming from the very person you've been doing all these for. although i didn't actually do something wrong. yes, i'm a bitch. hell i'm a bitch. with everything i'm keeping inside, all the hopes i'm holding on to, all my dreams that came to waste, i just can't see the light.

i know i will, soon.

i just hope that time comes before i totally lose hope.

to see.

i guess i'm just not broken. i'm a mess. a bitchy one, alryt.

until i learned that i knew nothing, despit everything.

yes, i didnt know it was true.

until you let me believe that it was not true at all.

yes, i didnt know where i'de gone.

until you asked me and led me back to the road.

yes, i didnt know i was giving so much.

until i knew that it was all for nothing.

yes, i didnt know i was that confusing.

until you left without uttering a single word.

yes. i just didnt know what happend.

either ways, i don't know how i feel. or what to feel, rather.

i just grew tired on sorting my feelings that i don't even know what's true anymore.

our t-shirt design for economics.

i just felt like posting. haha